Thursday, May 16, 2013
I don't understand how this could have happened. At this time our agency does not have any surrogates available. It's a small agency, so there's no telling when another one will come along, or if someone comes along that will be a good fit.
I'm not a patient person, but I wish I was. I waited to start trying to have kids until Mr. Bee was out of law school. Then I had to wait because I was so sick. When I was mostly better, I waited until we exhausted all of our infertility options. And then, we waited until we had money saved for a surrogate.
I hate feeling sorry for myself, but I'm not always strong. I keep hitting roadblock after roadblock.
I have countless blessings in my life, and I'm trying to focus on those. I still have hope, but it's so hard to keep going.